The Road So Far
You have so much time, so much ahead of you. You will grow and you will heal. You will find the love of your life, pass the test, visit the place you always wanted to visit, learn the language. In some years you won’t think about the bad grade you got in that one exam, and maybe you will also see that what seems like a failure now was an opportunity all along.
The past few months I have dedicated myself completely to the college admissions process- a long and grueling moment in my life, but one, now that I am at the end of, has me feeling very accomplished and excited for what’s yet to come.
Going into this process, I knew there would be some stress related to it, but unfortunately, it served to be much worse than I had ever imagined. Maybe because going into this process I already had a lot of general anxiety but as I am about to talk about, going through all of the steps took a great amount of toll on my mental state.
In the beginning of the year, I had a lot of excitement. I was traveling to visit schools, and finding a lot of solace in that time. I hadn’t yet applied anywhere so I was still feeling good about what was yet to come. When December rolled around, I was getting to witness all of my friends being accepted into amazing schools, and experiencing so much joy for them, but at the same time, I was basking in my own anxiety while waiting to hear back from the colleges I applied to. The period of waiting to hear back from schools was absolutely nerve-wracking and a process I wish I could do over. Each week I didn’t hear anything from a school, I grew to be more anxious than the last. I had terrible stress management skills during that time and was so ashamed that I couldn’t have control over my emotions.
In mid-January, I got my first acceptance letter, which as any high school senior will tell you, it felt so liberating. Although my first acceptance wasn’t from my top school, just to have that bit of security brought me so, so much peace.
Looking back on those few months, I wish I could offer you with some great advice on how I remained calm and collected, but to be honest, I don’t think that it will ever be possible for someone who is going through the admissions process to be just that. It’s a time where you aren’t supposed to have a lot of control, which has the power to drive a lot of people crazy (I sure know it did just that to me). But what may now seem like a scary and intimidating process, will soon transform into a beautiful one very, very soon.
You will go to a school. You will end up where you are meant to be. And you will be so happy.