I Feel It All
She had a very inconvenient heart. It always insisted on feeling things ever so deeply. - John Mark Green
Getting to know my mind and understand all the bearings of it has been a very long process to say the least. I’ve always felt a lot, things that have occurred in my life always seemed to touch me on much deeper levels than everyone else around me. For most of my existence I dismissed my emotions and became insecure in my actions; everything I felt was so genuine but at times I couldn’t understand those feelings + thoughts- my mind was having an identity crisis.
Through talking about how I think in therapy and various moments of self realization, I’ve discovered that I fall into the category of being a ‘highly sensitive person’. Someone who, in lameness terms, feels everything more deeply.
About 20 years ago, psychologists, Arthur and Elaine Aron, coined this term after determining that people who fall into the label of ‘highly sensitive’, are described as experiencing hypersensitivity to external stimuli, a greater depth of cognitive processing, and high emotional reactivity. The Aron’s believed that 15-20% of the population have this personality type and process sensory data more deeply due to the nature of their central nervous system.
Essentially with highly sensitive people, there are extreme highs, and extreme lows. Most every little thing is felt a lot more; there is much more unintentional thought and emotion involved in everything.
Learning more about who I am and getting at least a little bit of satisfaction from science helped me in more ways than one and that’s one of the beautiful gifts going to therapy has given me.
I’ll continue to preach it, but I think it’s more than important to constantly be educating yourself about yourself; because every single emotion and feeling that you have is 100% valid, and sometimes learning why you feel certain things helps you feel a little less alone.